I am so happy. It's like a lot of shit has finally fallen into it's proper places. And most of all it seems like Havoc is alright with how things are going. I never once went into anything thinking I'd end up being a single mother. I am also the primary caretaker of my son. It has been insanely hard on me for the last few months trying to balance everything out, but when it finally came down to it, once I finally found out that my ex has a girlfriend, it's like a lot of weight fell off my shoulders.
By all means, the shit he put me through in my past is unforgivable, it left horrible scars on my self esteem, I'm sure some of my retaliation tactics left him a bit shaky too. Drug addled old men and equally drug addled young women are just brew for trouble. (We've both cut the drugs, future blog posts on addiction in the future!)
But the fact that he has a girlfriend is amazing. x3 I don't have to worry about him and his feelings anymore. All the love letters and music that he so adamantly sent to me suddenly ceased a few months ago finally makes sense now~! Of course, I like this new girlfriend of his already, as I knew about her years ago, so I don't have to fear her being some crazy ass bitch. She's younger than me, but he dated her years ago before. Once a cradle robber always a cradle robber!
But now. I just feel so in harmony and at peace. Now we can work on raising our son in the best possible way while still nurturing our own lives to be better than what they were or are currently. To me, this just seems like what our son needs. To see how to resolve conflict, to see two adults, though parted, working towards a better future for him. That we can bring other adults into our lives (with caution) and form healthy relationships.
It's okay to fall down, but it's always good to get back up and keep moving forward.
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